Direct Messages

A friendly stranger 10/3/2024 7:08 PM

Hello.

why do you want to join

To learn to research.

are you a zoo

A friendly stranger

To learn to research.

you met any zoosadists yet?

No, in fact I do not feel sexual or romantic emotions. And yes I have met by passing; not enough to have a conversation. If you want to know I don't agree with zoosadists nor zoophilia. Thought I will stay friendly as no amount of hate goes anywhere. You can spot me in many zoophile places.

A friendly stranger

No, in fact I do not feel sexual or romantic emotions. And yes I have met by passing; not enough to have a conversation. If you want to know I don't agree with zoosadists nor zoophilia. Thought I will stay friendly as no amount of hate goes anywhere. You can spot me in many zoophile places.

i have been told about you

7:12 PM

what do you think about sappho?0

Well I have not heard good things.

have you ever met a practising zoosadist?

Possible, again by passing not enough to question.

you have now

7:14 PM

application accepted

7:17 PM

i find it amusing that youve gone quiet instead of further questioning me

7:18 PM

ill put a good word in for you

Okay, well here's another. Are you Sapho? I'm genuinely interested to talk to Sapho.

A friendly stranger

Okay, well here's another. Are you Sapho? I'm genuinely interested to talk to Sapho.

no but sappho is in the server

Who in the server is Sapho?

Valerie

7:21 PM

if you ping them i ban you

Okay, noted I won't. How about a Message?

i dont care

Hello.

?

Was told to come to you for verification.

what

5:20 PM

this account is inactive be fast

5:20 PM

im just clearing up Messages

Hello.

oh hi

6:50 AM

didnt know u were still alive

Someone said that same thing that's funny.

6:50 AM

Anyway what's going on?

can i get an invite to ur server

6:50 AM

wdym

Oh sure, I suppose.

6:51 AM

Why do you ask?

just kinda interested tbh

Also I'm curious are you still zoophilic?

i mean

6:52 AM

what do u think of zoos

I assume you would have remembered, well I wouldn't be aggressive towards one. My thoughts on it have not changed I disagree and rather see it as immoral. Though hate can go nowhere so no reason to be hateful.

oh right ur neutral

6:55 AM

can i get that invite

Sure.

6:55 AM

https://discord.gg/HFXcZBQW

6:56 AM

Again though if it's alright asking are you still zoophilic I'm curious? Also wouldn't consider myself neutral maybe on action but not beliefs.

yea

Alright, do you ever consider getting help? Or do you believe it's okay?

6:58 AM

You don't have to answer if your uncomfortable with the question.

i got caught as being a zoosadist so ig im that now lmfao

A friendly stranger

Alright, do you ever consider getting help? Or do you believe it's okay?

idk

6:58 AM

havent made up my mind on that

6:58 AM

i mean im self aware its not ok but doesnt mean i dont enjoy it

Would you ever act on that? Also first zoo sadist I have talked to or at least knew I was talking too.

hell yeah i would

7:01 AM

planning too

Zoosadism specifically?

yes

7:02 AM

alr acted on normal zoo stuff b4

How do you justify that?

i dont lmao i know its wrong

7:03 AM

im not gonna bullshit and act like its okay its not

Damn, that's knew.

7:03 AM

So you just don't care that it's completely immoral?

pretty much

7:05 AM

ive given up pretending im an ok person atp

That's very interesting, you don't see a way of changing?

7:05 AM

I mean it's interesting that you don't try to justify it but also not good.

7:06 AM

Any guilt?

nah

I feel like you would be better off improving but I can't force you, I've know some who got better but sad to see.

7:07 AM

How do you think you ended up like this?

by consuming media of it lol

That's very unfortunate, I've been exposed to it but suppose I'm different because I just didn't feel anything and was disturbed because it's immoral I would say.

7:13 AM

Do you think you will ever try to get better? (edited)

im at a football match

7:14 AM

ill respond at half time

Got it

Do you have any trauma? Of sorts? If again it's alright asking.

Take your time, though I feel you should definitely get help and just giving in like that and not having a fulfilling life doesn't make sense to me but I suppose you don't care. Please get help, think about a life better then this. If you continue you'll probably get caught and such, don't believe your the one that won't that's not true. I hope you get better all I can really do is hope, I don't hate you but you make me sad. It's depressing honestly. Just try. Don't live a life of indulgence for others pain, live a life of anything more. I don't know I'm shocked your unlike the test

A friendly stranger

Do you have any trauma? Of sorts? If again it's alright asking.

i mean ig

8:29 AM

i was groomed a few times by people in this community if that counts as trauma

A friendly stranger

Do you think you will ever try to get better? (edited)

also idk

8:30 AM

depends if i ever really get too much attention for what i do or not

Don't do it, is it really worth it? I usually wouldn't talk like this but strange time in my life to talk to me I suppose

8:32 AM

I apologize if my words cause any distress.

i stopped caring a while ago

8:34 AM

ur good

Alright, well I understand. But try, it's worth it I've seen a lot. For whatever it's worth and you may not care but I'm trying to do as much good as I can, and I want to help people. So just at the very least one try, I understand and when I say that it may sound hollow but I do truly understand

8:37 AM

I'm just trying my best

sorry im back

9:35 AM

just won the FA cup

9:41 AM

It's alright, also good for you.

9:34 PM

I passed out, weeks of no sleep I suppose.

I appreciate the honesty that's hard to come by, was distressed earlier due to recent events making me much more easy to agitate so I may have acted differently.

yeah i get that

1:51 AM

tony soprano moment lol (elite reference)

How many people know your like this?

1:57 AM

Also I hope things get better for you. Know people who did get better.

A friendly stranger

How many people know your like this?

Close circle

1:57 AM

Im being exposed for other things right now

1:57 AM

People like Sappho or Kero dont have an idea Im a zoosadist

Okay, well just had a thought he might be very distressed and he doesn't really have a discord account but would you like to speak to someone who recovered?

1:58 AM

He has PTSD as well.

2:00 AM

Really just curious you don't have too.

Sure

2:00 AM

Its hard to tell what you are and arent phased by

2:01 AM

also how long have you been around like the zoo community? I feel like I've been seeing ur name since 2023 bro

Probably since 2023 was when I starting showing that I was doing research though really been reading about phycology and behaviors, and including zoophilia for a long time so are interactions before 2023 were I didn't go the name a friendly stranger.

2:02 AM

I'm not usually phased by things.

A friendly stranger

Probably since 2023 was when I starting showing that I was doing research though really been reading about phycology and behaviors, and including zoophilia for a long time so are interactions before 2023 were I didn't go the name a friendly stranger.

Yeah ive seen you everywhere

2:03 AM

Ur alt is N/A btw right?

He's a friend.

2:03 AM

Also interesting that you have.

what can i say dude i make my way about (edited)

2:04 AM

i think u were in that server whiskey owned at some point

A friendly stranger

He's a friend.

oh?

2:04 AM

hes got whiskey added

Personal friend know him in person and he does.

2:05 AM

Also I was I think.

It was around 2023 where it was big

2:05 AM

but then in order to help my upcoming sappho server he just straight up merged it with mine

Yeah I remember that.

i cant tell you what whiskey does now

2:06 AM

i still spot him in some very niche zoo servers and stuff

That's interesting.

yea idk

I'm setting up an account for the person who recovered by the way.

awsome sauce

It is I suppose.

Kind of odd you would show me a cat.

with the situation at hand yes

Definitely, also you should have received a friend request. By test hI

im gonna have to do an exam in a short while

2:18 AM

i apologize if i got to disappear for an hour or two

It's alright

Seems like it's going good. Good to see.

Hello.

yooo

How has it been since we last spoke and you spoke with my friend.

good

6:45 PM

dramas got worse for me lol

6:45 PM

That's a shame, really doesn't feel good to be in drama. I hope things and you can get better.

yeah idk

6:46 PM

only thing stopping people from fully lashing out at me is the fact im a minor

6:46 PM

thanks though

Oh really I didn't really think about how old you were, how old are you if it's alright asking.

15

My friend is your age, that's interesting I'm a year older. that's interesting.

damn

6:48 PM

i was thinking today

6:48 PM

ive technically been part of the paraphile community for a third of my entire life

6:48 PM

aint that smthn

That's pretty unfortunate, at least I think so. Is something.

ya

6:49 PM

That's funny I suppose.

6:51 PM

What else is going on.

wdym

6:52 PM

idk i got "exposed" by people on roblox

6:52 PM

"im a victim of dyno" straight up no ur not i didnt do anything

6:52 PM

man im going to become the next sappho if the drama keeps pilin up

That's really unfortunate, when it comes to allegations I don't usually pick a side.

oh lmao i dont expect you to side with me

6:53 PM

ive been complaining to everyone about this honestly

6:53 PM

its unfair

6:54 PM

my therapist also just said i lack certain emotions like dude youd think im fucking lying atp

6:54 PM

put a sign on me that says ted bundy

/j (edited)

You have a right to complain, also you were compared to Ted Bundy by your therapist?

no

6:54 PM

if i was i think that would be final straw

6:54 PM

Yeah I don't know if I could compare you to Ted Bundy you did straight up say you would act on zoosadist fantasies but I don't know your only 15 and we're groomed so a difference.

6:55 PM

So I wouldn't compare you that wouldn't be fair to you.

yea ig

6:56 PM

thanks for the reassurance

6:56 PM

i got some info that "the antis are stressing" but i think that was someone trying to wind me up

6:56 PM

its actually insane how much drama has piled over me

Quick question what emotions were you told you lack? If it's fine asking.

she didnt specify

6:57 PM

probably for the best

Therapists can be strange here to help or just doing their job.

they r probably their to help

6:59 PM

yo i gotta ask

It's their job but heard some that were pretty bad which is unfortunate.

your just doing this out of interest right?

Interest, empathy, and I don't know a pull I guess to do this

im assuming your archiving information in your server from your interactions with different ppl

7:00 PM

like what happens to that

Not necessarily.

7:02 PM

I don't know how to explain it but like how an artificial intelligence can be trained off of information and well spot patterns I do. I mean I can spot a zoophile or predator pretty easily I doubt my intuition at times because we'll it's hard to believe. More like it's discussed with some and I think about it a lot and learn from it.

oh i see

7:02 PM

so like

Learn how to be correct, help others, and do what's right

your trying to build and understand the character for different types of zoos sort of thing

7:03 PM

like the traits someone who is predatory might show?

Something like that, I mean it I can help you or my friend which taught me a lot I can learn to help others better.

im interested

That's good I'm glad.

7:06 PM

Any questions?

so like nothing ive said will be distributed without me knowing or anything like that?

7:10 PM

we cool if so

7:10 PM

lol

Nope, not at all.

7:10 PM

Thats distressing behavior.

not me

Still distressing either way.

good to talk w people abt what i think abt

7:11 PM

i mean that msg wasnt actually sent by me

7:12 PM

but its better than letting it build up in the back of my mind

Definitely every needs someone to talk to.

ya

Shouldn't let it build up and fester and blow up at some point.

exactly

7:13 PM

dont want to end up acting on these thoughts after all lol

Definitely if I let you do that me and my friend would probably think on this years later a forever regret.

7:14 PM

Hurts you to act on those thoughts, hurts loved ones, and it's immoral.

A friendly stranger

Definitely if I let you do that me and my friend would probably think on this years later a forever regret.

honestly dude

7:15 PM

if i end up getting to that point, you can do what you want

7:15 PM

I dont want to see myself at that level

7:15 PM

or atleast be able to get away with it

Yeah that's good to see you feel that way, you seemed to not care earlier and planned to do it. Glad to see your already feeling somewhat better I think.

7:16 PM

good to be self aware

It really is.

That's a classic.

fr

7:18 PM

rip the chinese meal man

7:18 PM

gone too soon

I internally flinch whenever I'm sent media seen some things I suppose and expect to have to report. When I say that I mean really bad stuff illegal.

7:19 PM

Trust you won't do that just something I just noticed.

yea lol

7:19 PM

also on my main account? hell no

7:19 PM

take it off platform

I don't think you would to me, also don't think it should be on the platform.

yea lol

7:22 PM

Don't really understand, did you make that?

ya

7:24 PM

making progresss

That's cool, good job better than any time I have tried to animate.

u draw too?

Yes but been told my drawings look crazed, mostly just creatures. Also Photoshop on occasion.

A friendly stranger

Yes but been told my drawings look crazed, mostly just creatures. Also Photoshop on occasion.

send

7:28 PM

dude i use to do the scizo drawing style dw

oh heck yea

7:29 PM

awsome

Yeah glad you think so.

Dyno

Click to see original Message

If it's alright asking you don't have to answer but where and by who was this Message sent?

7:45 PM

Take your time by the way don't rush yourself to answer me.

Wish you luck I suppose You don't have to respond at all though genuinely do hope a future for you a good one.

A friendly stranger

If it's alright asking you don't have to answer but where and by who was this Message sent?

i didnt get this notification

5:43 PM

idk

5:43 PM

i cant tell you that lol sorry

Oh alright nevermind then.

5:43 PM

You don't have to tell me that if you can't.

id rather not

5:44 PM

i managed to get alot of kiwifarms posts deleted about me

5:44 PM

i think its a sign this is starting to die down

Yeah no problem I wouldn't force you to do anything your not comfortable.

5:45 PM

Also that's interesting and good I suppose.

5:46 PM

I wouldn't want you being harassed that's just not deserved.

ya

5:46 PM

if this sort of thing keeps happening though idk

5:47 PM

like i keep having small dramas around me

5:47 PM

its gonna start to build up until it blows up

Yeah better to try and improve things so that doesn't happen. Drama is bothersome.

What does drama around you usually go like?

"he did some fucked up shit"

5:50 PM

or

5:50 PM

"im his victim"

5:50 PM

idk

5:50 PM

something like that

5:50 PM

its honestly gay and stupid

Sounds mentally harmful, does sound stupid I suppose.

yeah its never like i actually did anything

Maybe you should try and distance yourself from some groups.

just get framed because people see the drama from previous times and want the attention (edited)

A friendly stranger

Maybe you should try and distance yourself from some groups.

i get unlucky when i chose ppl to interact with ig

I suppose though you seemed pretty honest with me when earlier which I appreciate. If I was a malicious individual that would be pretty bad. If I ever did do anything bad you would have a full right to tell others not to trust me.

nah i trust you

5:53 PM

people can change too

5:53 PM

also im not a malicious individual, unlike some people in this community lolz

That's good that you trust me.

1

check out this

shady ass corner

5:55 PM

i need to turn off steam notifications lol

Yeah, that's funny.

no telegram in sight

5:56 PM

not fucking with it

5:56 PM

That made me laugh, also I agree I don't trust telegram.

5:59 PM

Sincere apologies my connection is somewhat slow so having some technical issues. Message may be late.

6:01 PM

Anyway I was wondering if it's alright asking how you are doing at the moment I suppose. Also how you are doing with zoosadism again I apologize if this question causes any discomfort or distress.

lol im in bed rn ;3

6:01 PM

ironically just finished gooning

6:01 PM

to some

6:01 PM

That's unfortunate, also wants expecting the wink don't know what I am supposed to say about that.

6:03 PM

Getting flashbacks to a guy I tried to help who had a terrible life and was zoophilic but never heard from him again he might be dead.

A friendly stranger

Getting flashbacks to a guy I tried to help who had a terrible life and was zoophilic but never heard from him again he might be dead.

oh

Yeah he talked about seeing people sexually assaulted growing up and well waking up without pants. Really sad stuff.

6:05 PM

He was in foster care.

damn sad fr

6:05 PM

ignore caption (edited)

It's alright, actually this question may be a bit uncomfortable but trying to figure out what may be the issue. So haven't found any evidence of this but some may like animals because of the taboo nature of it, some may because well it's nonconsensual, another told me they liked it because of how they wanted to be sexually assaulted and they wanted to be in the animals place, and so are paraphilic in that the animal is attractive. What makes you like animals from what you can tell.

idk i just like seeing things get fucked or killed

6:09 PM

i really dont have a turn on whether it looks like rape or not

Alright so like anything? Like people? What's the specifics?

6:10 PM

I'm trying to figure out coping mechanisms I could recommend.

A friendly stranger

Alright so like anything? Like people? What's the specifics?

wdym specigics

6:10 PM

i like seeing animals dead and fucked, or fucked while dying

6:11 PM

sometimes humans too but thats just me being edgy lol

Alright good to know, so do you think there's an outlet? Also we're exposed to death at all as a kid? Also coping mechanism that may work try to write or draw and don't just right smut or draw it. I mean like try to write something as an outlet. Like how my friend he writes a lot of horror and depictions of suffering and such.

6:14 PM

Does that sound good? Writing stories and such.

Alright so I don't know if this one is the best method I have thought of it before but I wonder what you'll think of it. Substitution, not watching animals die but like I don't know maybe something less extreme. I don't know what that would be, maybe not actual animals or not actual death hard to say. Like I'm the future if you're still somewhat like this you could roleplay with a partner I've seen that not now your 15 that would be odd of me to suggest. I've seen some pretty gruesome roleplays between consenting partners. Hard to say what to say though, complex situation.

6:33 PM

Are these by any means good ideas.

honestly

1:41 AM

i think im not actually as worried about controlling myself or stuff like that

1:42 AM

more worried ill end up being a lolcow or smthn lmao

i appriciate that your interested and against what i do and stuff, but your interested in seeing me become a better and healthier person

1:51 AM

alot of people would either be violent. Or in a worser case scenario try and bait someone and pretend to be like pro zoosadism

Good to see, a lot of individuals are violent or try to bait others which is sad. Also I don't think you'll become a lolcow and if you start becoming one just become less active on the Internet I suppose.

1

11:24 AM

I hope the future people can be better educated and try to help zoophiles or zoosadists recover and not slander them or just send threats.

never enough pouches

That's an interesting thing.

I would like to ask do you believe you can get better? Also interesting to see you support Ukraine I suppose that's a good thing.

ya thinking abt volunteering

5:06 PM

on my mind for a long time lol

5:08 PM

You want to join the military?

yea

Alright well I hope you don't die if you do, what branch are you thinking about joining?

trench raiding

5:17 PM

wish i could join azov but my ukrainian is horrible

Yeah, good to see people with passion but I bet you could learn if you want to.

you know much about the military?

Mostly stories from my father, a medic he showed me a knife he used to cut someone open and would yell at me about seeing people kill themselves and children dying. That's mostly it.

A friendly stranger

Mostly stories from my father, a medic he showed me a knife he used to cut someone open and would yell at me about seeing people kill themselves and children dying. That's mostly it.

showed u the buck 180 huh

5:20 PM

damn

5:20 PM

I didnt read the fully before responding

It's alright really just know that my father has a distant stare like actually a thousand yard stare.

5:25 PM

How are things I suppose.

doing good

5:26 PM

drama dying down ive decided to not do those debates

5:26 PM

i was planning on doing

5:26 PM

also cancelled a podcast i had set actually

You were going to do a debate that's interesting, debating what?

5:27 PM

Good to see drama dying down I suppose.

A friendly stranger

You were going to do a debate that's interesting, debating what?

zoosadism lol

5:27 PM

i was gonna go on a podcast too and troll about zoo shit with a friend

So what do you mean debate zoosadism like debate allegation. Also interesting.

debate zoosadism

Whether you should be able to do it? Morality?

5:31 PM

yeah

5:31 PM

my argument is that its human nature to want to kill animals

That's not the best argument but okay. How else is it okay?

5:33 PM

Also interesting quote.

was funny

A friendly stranger

That's not the best argument but okay. How else is it okay?

idk thats it

5:35 PM

im also not really justifying it but its still human nature to want to kill

Also another question I have zero urge to hurt animals I don't really have an urge to kill. Even the worst of the worst predators it's sort of not smart to kill them can research them lock them in a room.

5:35 PM

What does that mean about me?

idk no offence im bein honest

5:36 PM

sounds sorta smart but also kinda weak

5:36 PM

once ur done with them might as well kill em, no use after that

5:37 PM

big and dangerous its a threat, you figure it out then you put it down

A threat can be reformed. Start our extreme and if they die in the process it's an accident but I mean effecting the brain. Figure it out then put it at peace, lobotomies maybe see if the urge stays even if the brain is damaged several. You can kill and it's not really weak in my head to think about experimenting instead of killing.

1

5:40 PM

Don't have to kill if it's not needed.

A friendly stranger

A threat can be reformed. Start our extreme and if they die in the process it's an accident but I mean effecting the brain. Figure it out then put it at peace, lobotomies maybe see if the urge stays even if the brain is damaged several. You can kill and it's not really weak in my head to think about experimenting instead of killing.

no offence its just way easier to kill something (edited)

5:40 PM

efficient

It's much more useful to watch it live much longer then just killing it. Everything it could have been everything you could have learned, strings cut gone a road blocked off for good. Maybe worry of where that road could lead but watching teaches us. As long as the subject isn't allowed to hurt another.

5:43 PM

I wouldn't kill you.

5:43 PM

I believe you deserve to live.

lmao if i was in ur shoes id kill me

5:44 PM

the difference between me and some delusional idiot like sappho is that i know im scummy for the shit i do

I'm glad you're not delusional. Do you think you deserve to die?

probably

5:46 PM

not saying that in a suicidal way

I understand, I would say you do deserve to live I would die for you because well it makes sense to be good to another. I'd just hope you would try to be a good person after.

aw thanks man

Your welcome I suppose but why shouldn't everyone get a chance. Not saying dangerous people should be free but I believe you can change and you can be better.

I wanna see you get better and I believe you can.